I have a much larger update coming in the next few hours, but I need to take some time out and pick apart my thoughts as they run through my head.
In the past few years, I have become a radically different person. Physically, emotionally, and career wise, I'm not even remotely the same person I was back in the day.
I'm home right now, and I've been trying over the past few weeks while I'm back here for the holidays to reconnect with some people I had lost touch with when I went off to have a life. As I try, I'm learning a very powerful lesson, as we grow we do really grow apart. I'd always heard that saying and called bull shit on it, being the stupid kid i was I'd always say, " Well, I've had the same friends for years, their not going anywhere and neither am I."
Well turns out I was wrong, and things have changed. Those who I thought were the closest to me have started disappearing, and new individuals have started appearing to take their place. This change has taken place so fast it blows my mind. Regardless of this, having buried too many people in 2008, and preparing to bury another in 2009, the prospect of loosing more people, whether to death or change is frightening.
However, deciding to live my life in 2009 as the glass is half full, I'm thinking maybe this change is for the best. My life has had radical changes in the past two years, and a few more major ones are on the way in the next year, so maybe it's time for a little shake up.
Different people, Different places, Different Lives, Can we stay together, or will we stray apart? Is it fate for us to grow away, or must we fight to rekindle the love and friendships we once had?
